So, some overly kind and indulgent commentors asked me what my secret was after a particularly sane post a few days back. I just figured it out: It's you guys.
Now I feel like I'm pulling something akin to that stupid Time "Person of the Year" award a few years ago. You! You did it!
But it's true. I won't have been able to feel so good and able to cope if you hadn't shared your stories, dark moments, anxieties, joys, hopes, etc. with me, and comforted me in mine. I wrote a while back about how I first turned to blogs in hopes of knowing my future. I wanted to find out what was wrong with me and read about someone who figured it out and got knocked up or "cured" or whatever. I read obsessively in spurts and usually went away upset and twice as anxious.
Now, I get this curious sense of human interaction, of a sorts. And that is very calming and healing. I see all kinds of women struggling, and I know there's nothing particularly special or heinous about me. My evil brush with slutdom didn't cause this, nor did my alcohol misuse, nor my "waiting." None of us, regardless of our past decisions, deserve to be here. We just are, and what will happen depends more on our wallets and random chance than our rectitude and worthiness.
So, thank you. You've done so much, with just your words.
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Thank YOU. I enjoy your writing so much!
This is the best thing about all of this, as far as I'm concerned - that we are all helping each other with what we write. My life has changed so much for the better since I found this little corner, and I feel awed and proud that I'm helping build it now. And you're helping build it, too, with your truthful posts full of poetry and beauty and the clear sense of there being good in the world, especially in nature.
It's just a great big slighly anonymous mutual admiration society here today. And you're right - that Time magazine thing was stupid.
Right back at ya babe! I think the key to finding solace in other people's writing is to find people who are in the same phase that you are and who have the same general outlook on life. Which, of course, is why I read your blog. :)
And, it has absolutely nothing to do with the fact that you love me. None.
Awe you are so sweet! And I agree, no one deserves to be in the middle of IF. Its not fair and thats it! I am so very thankful for this blogging community too. It truley is the best therapy!
I feel the same way, so thanks right back at ya!
Sniff ... sniff ... Thanks for the blove. I've only stumbled on your blog recently but have truly enjoyed reading it. I truly wish I could have found this type of solace ... oh, maybe 5 years ago when Hubby & I were finally making the decision to try IVF. Which ... then after that failed attempt ... I really needed some blove.
But I truly do thank you for your writing. It's been so wonderful to read.
I so agree. Back at you- I just love your blog, your perspective, and your writing style. Thank you.
Thank you, reading your blog and getting to know you through your words is truly a gift.
It's amazing, isn't it? I don't know how I got through two years of this hell without y'all. I am so much more sane, calm, zen, and even occasionally happy, in the past few months.
Thanks to you, sweetie. And everyone else. It's kind of a miracle for me.
Wallets and randomness. Exactly.
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