I just got a message on our home machine from Nurse Sweetie (she's the nicest, most patient of women who's very sympathetic) at the RE's. I'm a little pregnant. I think it's likely a chemical. Beta=15 for those of you playing at home. Meanwhile, in coochie land, the Red Army continues its maneuvers.
Back to get poked again on Thursday. Ah, IF land! Just when you think you know your way around...
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And the hits just keep on coming! Are they going to have you do a follow up?
I guess we're not merging after all.
Sorry to hear this, Shinejil. Just adds another layer of complication onto things. Hard to know what to hope for, so I guess I just hope that you're ok. I'll be thinking of you often.
Aww, crap. I'm sorry.
I just don't know what to say. Part of me wants to remind you that people have had successful pregnancies with betas this low, but with the Red Army thing, I guess it isn't likely. It seems this is just yet another twist of cruelty.
WTF. Oh babe, that is...damn. What a place to be in. If you need/want anything let me know.
I am very late catching up on your news! so much has happened and Mao and his Red men really suck (oh wait, I can't say that with the Olympics going on and such; never mind).
But to comment on an earlier post of yours. It is SOOOOO easy to just want to give up. I felt like an automaton after 4 years of trying to conceive and only 1 and a half yrs of actively battling IF. Luckily I had such a good gyny she bucked me up like a good coach bolstering her losing-streak team: "Do you want to have this baby or not!?" she rallied.
It wasn't "a baby" but "this baby" as if there was one already out there waiting for me somewhere (how the stork would bring it, was another story). It worked in that i chose to plod onward, but I refused to get excited with each new procedure. I just soldiered on doing a job that had to be done.
I am thankful I did keep going though I really don't know to what extent I would have gone --to what degree of invasiveness would I have lasted and given IVF was more or less verboten where I was, was I really going to jet to Spain like everyone else did??
all i can say is there is nothing wrong with plodding along with your heart and soul "on ice" as it were as long as the people taking care of you seem to know what they are doing and aren't wasting your time and money. i found being on cruise control thru all of it lessened my disappointment when aunt flo dropped in but it also made believing i really was prego and would carry to term surreal and it did prevent me from ever doing the whole "bonding with baby" in utero thing like yr supposedly supposed to do.
it stinks not knowing what you should be doing with your life. my hunch is to do the thing you would never be able to pick up and do in the future because the opportunity is here now and might be gone later. anything you can put on hold and do years later, do so, though i would wrap up unfinished (and maybe unpleasant?) bizness first (like the dis???)
Yes, just who did start this idea that you can't be a little bit pregnant? Crikey! hadn't they heard of IVF and related malarkey? It's tough, innit? What is the next move? For what it is worth, I am thinking of you! Best wishes x
I'm so sorry - about the possible chemical, and about the enforced break. This must be doubly frustrating for you.
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